Would like to take this chance to express my gratitude to Calvin and Zibin, for arranging this Farewell Party despite their busy schedules and of course, those who made a trip down specially to give their wishes. I really appreciate all the efforts you guys made in making this Farwell Party such a memorable and fun one for me. Now, I'm ready to bid SG goodbye for 4months and continue my learning journey somewhere half a globe away. All thanks to you guys' assurance that everything would turns up fine and i'll neven be forgotten!

Though words can't express my gratefulness to each and single one of you, my heartfelt "Thankyou" once again.

Till then!
Much misses.

XOXO

I'll be using this journal to update those pictures dated long time back then and lovethread  would be use for updates in Orlando (Mid March to Early July).

So catch me at both journals! :>

Teach me how to let go, cause i ought to move on.
Cut the craps about fate and timings, cause i believe in none.

Everything i thought i was, became null and void when faced with you.
But i'm not going to be so useless and be the one who stays.
Time to let go of everything unworthy.

 

HELLO I'M BACKED!



I've (kind of) sorted out my thoughts and have ditched the negative thoughts i've been having for the past few days. Yes, i chose this overseas attachment and i should not be grumbling right now. Though i knew this 4 months is going to be tough and challenging, i kinda underestimate what was coming my way. But then again, this is how life is supposed to be yeah? Full of surprises, unexpected nonsense and changes. Trust me when i say i'll make the most out of it.

My special thanks to CALVIN, PEIFEN, AZILA , KIM, DAVE & XINYI! Thanks for all the encouraging emails and etc. You guys really keeps me going! I placed everything in my heart :>

Next week's schedule is horrible, seriously. I'll be working 40hours with back-to-back shifts on Mardi Gras. But thank god, i've Xiaver and Fang with me, working at IOA together! & same timings as Pauline (can take bus together), though she's working at USF!

Got to go now, rushing my report still!
 

It's difficult. It's difficult to be living and working in a foreign country. I miss everything in Sg, so much so that i can no longer hold back my tears. Got up from bed and continue my weeping in the bathroom, went to bed again, but crawled to the living room eventually to express my grief. Know what?! I would be such an insensitive idiot if i were to cry infront of the others, esp those who miss their family/ friends/ bf/ pets or those who met with problems in their work. So yeah, i only dare to let out everything when im alone ): In a hopeful attempt to lift our mood, Shu Hui and I worked hand in hand and finished a tub of B&J's Banana Split, too bad it wasnt effective or whatsoever.

Right from the start, i've been wondering why the hell do i put myself through this. Any ideas, anyone?

Goodbye for now, Meadowsloves.

Hello from Orlando!  Sorry for the lack of updates these days, its' been a mad rush in Sg with tight schedules and everything. I was packing my luggage and baggage(s) till the last min! Oh yes, 5 out of 5 of my roommates told me i brought to many clothings over to Orlando, while i thought i've left alot of my precious clothings in Sg (and was sore about this). Contradicting, yes.

How's everybody over at Sg?! I cried so so so easily, when on phone with Mom, when exchanging sms-es with friends... Now y'know how i miss Sg! At times i really regret choosing this overseas' attachment. But i suppose this weird and uneasy feeling will soon be over, like what we learnt in ICCA's module. Mmmm i hope so.

Okay got to run now! Sending emails to my favourite people and off to Publix!

While on our way to the US Embassy on a bright and sunny morning, we happened to bump into Renee and Hui Ying :> We spent quite abit of our youth at the waiting area, all for the short interview, all for my Visa, all for access to US, all for my 4months' attachment. Anyway if im right, the angmoh interviewer said something like, 'You've ugly fingerprints, but i forgive you'. Haha so whatthehell yes?! But Sylvia thought it might be: "You've got ugly nail polish...'. Haha i'll have to agree to the latter, cos i din't managed to remove every bit of my nail polish. I thought the interview might be a formal one, hence the removal of my beloved nail colour, but nah, its' a goddamn short one (with many security protocols). Supposedly going to do our nails together with Jiamin, but cos the Clubbing Session was cancelled, we dint managed to meetup before that. Okay i shall make do with my naked nails ):

Went back to school for the OIPP's briefing by Mr Kumar and the respective LO(s) and went Northpoint for some 'Pre-groceries' shopping' with Kim. Haha. I think we spent quite abit of time at Cold Storage marking the items imaginary for our 'actual' groceries' shopping on Friday. Harvey Norman for some price checkings, and we managed to suppress our desires till the upcoming IT Fair. Haha way to go girls! Oh yes, i saw Suzhen, JingKai and Merlyn in Cold Storage as well! I even took part in their 'video fliming', okay catch me there.

Meetup with Calvin afterwards and all thanks to his umbrella, managed to shelter Kim to her bus-stop. Haha but i've some trouble 'opening' the umbrella and coincidentally, Nigiel and Kelvin Lee saw my struggling/ battle, i hope its' not too much of an unpleasant sight. Haha. Afterwhich, JJ and Zibin came shortly and went KFC for dinner.

I'll have to wake up in less than 1.5 hour ):
Accomplish quite abit this Sunday and im pretty exhausted now. Probably it's time for bed.

C called me this morning with a shocking and unpleasant news- E's mom has passed away. So much for the credibility uh. The doctor actually told E, his mon has around half a year more? In fact, only days has passed. How unpredictable life is? I think i've got alot to learn from E, he's way strong than anyone.
 

 

PHEWWWWW. FINALLY, EVERYTHING'S SETTLED! TEEHEE I FEEL SO RELIEF RIGHT NOW. Bintan's trip is cancelled, we'll be having a chalet instead! :> To those who promised me it will be fun, please make good of your words! Haha the full-service bar would be something i'll look forward to!

Frankly speaking, Farewell Party over at Bintan would certainly be my pick, but i know i can't be so self-centered and only think for myself ): Moreover, you guys are way nice to me, i can't afford to be willful and do only what i like/ enjoys, without sparing a thought to others. Y'know despite the various contraints ($$$ & work schedules), you guys agreed to the trip (after C's influential message), and thats more enough already! I know you'all treats me well and do not wish to disappoint me and leave the final decision to me, cos its' my Farewell Party. So yes, we'll have it in Sg, next week :DD

Haha cmon praise me for being sensible and understanding! But prolly what Meisui said plays a part too: (1) Since i'm leaving Sg, i should spend my remaining days in Sg instead of travelling abroad. (2) Not everyone can go, and what matters' more for Farewell Party is prolly the number of attendees. Haha i think thats' about it?! Anyway, C you're right! Meisui managed to change my decision, i should not have went town with her!  However i suppose my conscience plays an important role too- I must think of others as well :>

& I'M SINCERELY THANKFUL TO EVERYONE (ESP CALVIN!) :DD
A thousand and a million thankyou.. I'm contented for i've such great friends around me.

(:

P/s: I don't think i've enough time to upload the photos, before i leave Sg ): Tsk stop going out and stay at home!

I'M L E A V I N G SG, NEXT SUNDAY.

This news came shocking and tears' jerking enough that i felt like crying on few instances yesterday, esp when i'm with C they all.  Anyway, its' not as though i've been an ignorant idiot all along, i've been counting down to my days left in Sg in fact, but i just din't expect im so near to my date of departure... So so so near, that i can use the phrase, 'Next Sunday'.

I ought to stop my procrastination, i've only 12days left to accomplish everything i need to and wish to. Hence, i've come up with a list of my to-do(s) and to-go(s) :>

TO B U Y

- Get a new phone
- Get a Semi-pro/ DSLR (Should i wait for the upcoming IT Fair?!)
- Get a MP3 player or something close- in loving memory of my beloved late Creative Muvo which went for a dip in -the washing machine/ laundry water...
- Groceries and necessities' shoppings trips with Sylvia, Shu Hui and Kim
- Get my retainers' soaking tablets

TO D O
- Clear my room + Pack clothes for donation to Salvation Army
- Suspend my M1's line for 4 months & get a HI Card
- USA Embassy to retrieve my passport and collect my VISA (4th March, Wed)
- Transfer $$$ to TA for my air tickets (by this week)
- Make the chocolate coated cornflakes and chocolates for Family & Friends (so that they will be reminded of me!)
- Need to pass C they all the shirts i got for them in BKK
- Get my nails' done/ remove everything (not yet decided)
- Finish reading the cook book and return to NLB
- Take more photos and develop/ print them out
- Spend quality time with my lovely friends and family which i'll miss terribly ):
- Change my passport's photograph!!
- Last thing: Pack my luggage ):

TO G O

Idk if i should say, my day has just started or it is coming to an end?! Alrights, i shall take as though its' the latter! Transfer $$$ and off to bed! Checking the mail box has become my daily routine and i 'seldom get disappointed' with the contents :> Take today for example, i received 2 dresses from TE and my loots from ASOS! Woohoo keep the parcels coming in! 

However, the consequences of retail therapy: Beloved Mom who seldom control my spendings came into my room and have a talk with me regarding the previous month's bills and asked me not to spend anymore on clothings and whatsnot, cos Dad has been complaining about the way i spend my $$$, my bursting wardrobes and the hangers which are on the verge of breaking. So yeah, maybe i should learn to save up... But i would rather cut down on my meals' expenses rather than retail therapy! Haha thats girls' nature for you. Anyway, i realised i should not participate in any backorders anymore, cos the items would reach my mailbox only when im over at Orlando.

OKAY, NEED TO CUT DOWN ON SPENDINGS!
How time flies, to think i even thought of going back to ERA with Agatha to earn some extras before the term break.

I realised i'm bad at doing multiple tasks, and nothing seems to be right/ completed ):
 

Currently occupied with...
(1) DS FORMS
(2) Online Shopping (with > 7windows)
(3) DBS Ibank's site (balance's dropping)
(4) Msn (sorry, my replies are damn slow)
(5) Uploading photos, but idk where to start from
(6) Drinking HL low-fat milk (all-time's favourite!)
(7) Removing my nail polish which is damn diffcult! Like half painted and half's not ): Not used to my naked nails, they look fugly ):
 

Anyway, i've to wake up early in the morning tmr and head down to Napier Road with Sylvia for our appts with the American Embassy. And guess what, tmr is going to be the day i've woke up earliest, thus far (during this term break)! Haha. But prior to the appt, i've many many many forms to prepare and also a 5cm x 5cm photograph (which we'll be taking tmr at the booth).

I'm sucha lazy bum... I din't even bother to prepare the forms, until now. & im quite lost now, with regards to the proof of finances. I dont know which banks' statements i should use... I thought of borrowing 2 grands or smth from Sissy to back my financial stability, but i realised my POSB's bank book does not have anymore space for me to update the book with new records. Unless i use the Ibanking records instead, but i'll need 4 to 5 grands from Sissy in that case, and i'm afraid the addition of such a big sum might make the whole thing suspicious ($$$ transferred over, only on the day before). So im only left with UOB ): & that would prolly means i've to go down to the bank later to deposit the sum or make do with the sum inside. Omg how how how?

Okay got to run now! Need a short nap before continuing!
Best of luck to my favourite classmates who are starting their internships tomorrow! :>

( Dancing to your tunes! ) 

Life's been pretty good for me, i hope the same goes to everyone out there :>
Lazy bum or what, but i don't feel like moving a single inch. Prolly aftermath of yesterday's drinking and clubbing session. Though high and tipsy after the continuous martinis and jugs, i still remember how we saved a girl and how unappreciative her Dad was. Will fill in the details and pictures again.
 

FEELING A LITTLE GUILTY OVER...

(1) I din't attend my relative's wake at all, throughout these 3days and went out with friends instead.

(2) I was supposedly to go with my folks today for the crementation but i ended up sleeping at home.
(3) I've been spending alot on clothes still (should be saving up for Orlando's trip)
(4) Have not clear my room yet
(5) Been sleeping like from 5am to 2pm every day (causing harm to my body and wasting my days)
(6) Perhaps i should really have my Farewell Party in Sg instead and stop causing trouble to everyone...
 

Anyway, i wanted to change my lj's song, but im quite lazy to deal with the htmls again. And come to think of it, i remember how this song used to remind me of everything unworthy and surprisingly, everything works out eventually! Haha perhaps i ought to be grateful to Nicole Scherzinger!

Thats' all for now, goodnights my favourite people (:
 

WASTED WHOLE OF MY SATURDAY'S AFTERNOON ):
Slept all the way till 4pm, until my phone rang. Almost in tears while talking to JJ ): IM SO SORRY, PLEASE FORGIVE ME! Shall try my best to salvage my Saturday! Heading out after a bath! :D

Yay Bintan's trip seems more hopeful now, i've steady on on banana friends:  Me, Meisui, Weiling, Calvin, Zibin, Cream, JJ and Weigen! 8 confirmed attendees, thus far! Most probably gonna have our own double-storey villa, private swimming pool and private bbq pit! Lets' look forward to Early March together!

( END OF YEAR2!! )